| Sayonara |
[12 Dec 2008|11:31pm] |
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Ja ne.
I'm taking a long break from here....Posting anyway. I'll still check up on my lovely Mama and other people like my reita_daily love-chans <3
It's best I do for sake of others.
Sayonara.
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[24 Dec 2007|04:58pm] |
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| Long Time-age |
[24 Dec 2007|03:59pm] |
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Rawr! I haven't posted in so long that it's ridiculous! Oh well, I guess. It's not like people check my LJ, anyway. XD I'm such dork/loser.
Yay, tomorrow is Christmas and that means I get a new sewing machine and new boots (Ita and Jun, I think you'll find them cute whenever I get to show them to you both, lol). I've been after Mom to get me a new machine since this summer when the piece of crap would keep screwing up whenever I tried to sew something for my Tema costume then again when I tried working on my Soubi ears. (oo! Which reminds me! I'm almost done with my frist costume for Mecha 4.0! I just need black jeans/pants, curlers for da wig, and my fur and stuff for my ears back from Hana-chan.) Now, with my beautiful brand new Brother's sewing machine I'll be able to work on my noseband for Reita~! Woot!
With tomorrow being Christmas it also means that I get to go see my stepdad's family at my Aunt Denise's house. I'm being forced by Mura-chan to take pictures of my stepcousin who's really cute. So now I have to play it off as I'm taking pictures for general reasons and not just him. XDDDD This is going to be fun, lol.
Oh! Oh! Oh! Guess what!!! I got THE HIGHEST F*ING grade on my American History Midterm! A 97! Isn't that just awesome? I had trouble in the class earlier in the year and now I'm at the top of the class! -squeals- It's hard to believe so I'm freaking out naturally~~~! I like the teacher as much of a dragonlady as she can be, but I didn't like the class too much. We don't really LEARN, we just do stuff in the class, so I studied all night before the exam so I could at least make a decent grade, high B, low A or somewhere around that. I also studied really hard for my Chemistry exam (honors course, so I studied EXTRA hard), and it was REALLY easy. I felt like I KNEW EVERYTHING on it, give or take a few questions. I'm really proud of myself. I even told Gaara-chan that I was going to be studing really hard, little did I know I was actually going to live up to that, lol.
So for a last comment, Merry Christmas, Happy Holidays, and have a Happy New Year! ^-^ <3<3<3<3<3<3
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| Tastes Nostalgic |
[08 Dec 2007|08:51pm] |
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I remembered about ten minutes ago I had pocky left over from my trip to Disney from Epcot Japan. I pulled it out and shared what was left (except for a single 3 pack of desert pocky) with Zachary who seems to like it.
Anyway, my point is, is that I was munching down some of the Chocolate Dessert Pocky and I noted the taste. It tasted like something I haven't eaten in a long time, like, when I was a little kid long time. It tasted sweet, and then it also had a hint of longing and missing memories. I couldn't remember what it tasted it like, and it really bothered me, lol.
If anyone else has had this type of pocky, does it taste like that to you? Familiar, yet you don't remember what else it tastes like?
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[08 Dec 2007|02:14pm] |
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Uughs. I'm happy that all of the people I invited to my high school's Xmas concert didn't come.
We some how managed to keep up the tradition of having someone faint and someone nearly faint on stage. First, before "Breath of Heaven (Mary's Song)" Franziska almost fainted and she walked off the stage for that song. Then, DURING that SAME song, some sophomore or freshman fainted (I'm not sure of her name) did faint and Ms Grant motioned for her to sit on the risers while the song continued and then had her leave the stage afterwords. I'm not sure how, but we got a standing ovation for that song. I suppose either for Mrs. Grant's choice of keeping that girl on the stage, us, or something else. I dunno. All I know is that we messed up a lot. XD
I'm quite surprised I didn't faint or fall on stage. By the third song my legs were numb due to two reasons: I was locking my knees and also my shoes are REALLY tight on my toes. By the end of the night, I had to ask Cierra to help me off stage and somewhere to sit. When I took my shoes off, my legs were shaking and numb, and my toes were beet red. T-T It took a few minutes before they were just pink, but I didn't put them back on for the rest of the night. I'm buying new shoes and I'm gonna practice standing for 45 minutes straight bending meh knees ever so slightly to where it's hardly noticeable. ^^; Keep thinking positive, keep thinking positive.
Anyway, to all the people who I invited that didn't come to the concert that I didn't get to talk to on the phone (-cough-), it's okay. I know each of you had your reasons because you had already told me about them. I also know it's partly my fault, too, because I wasn't able to come through to help ensure you being able to come. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my word, but I did try. I was just really busy this past week with Choir practice then everything at home. I always had something occupying my mind when I wasn't thinking about what I had to do. And when I did get the chance, it was too late. So, I'm sorry. I hope I get to see you soon, though, all of you. Christmas is coming up, so we should try to see each other for that pretty soon that way whenever I get you all gifts, I can give them to you. ^-^
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| Christmas Plans and Stuff |
[03 Dec 2007|10:24pm] |
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I'm so tired =_= Lol. Anyway, Christmas plans are a little, ugh, who knows this year.
This week I know I have to do my Christmas concert. (Anyone who lives in La is welcome to come! ^-^ Just IM me for the info on AIM).
Christmas week I think I do believe I have to do stuff with Mom's side of the family, then Christmas with the 4 of us, then with Greg's side. Where my Dad's side fits in, I have no idea, but I SWEAR to see him eventually for Christmas.
I also wanna do stuff with friends. Like I want to have Lulu, RIkku, Stella, Michi, Jun, and Ita over so I can get all my gifts to them and be happy...for once. XD Just kidding, just kidding. I guess I can't use off Kiba's gift as Ita's Xmas gift, could I? XD I SWEAR I won't Itachi, I promise! Lol. Speaking of gifts, I have to finish Christmas shopping. I only have gifts for Lulu and Rikku since, well, I begged Momma to let me get stuff for them from Epcot, and that's that. XD Sorry guys, I really am. I'll see if I can do my shopping this weekend or sometime this week.
Oh well-ish. I'll talk to everyone later. Bye byes.
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| Random Rant...Maybe? |
[09 Nov 2007|03:14pm] |
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Okay. I've come to realize about myself- I hate the sight of couples. Yes, I know I'm weird, but I have my reasons.
I got to thinking about this last night on my way home from my dad's with Momma, Greg, and Zach. Some song from Sir Elton John came on and Mom and Greg held hands and all that mushy stuff. I turned away from the scene and moped the entire way home.
I thought about all that stuff that comes with having a boy/girlfriend that others have experienced, but I've never gotten the chance to. It made me jealous that I've never had someone to talk to about everything not matter what, someone to turn to when I felt like I couldn't take it all, some that supported me in everything I did, and all that other stuff because I would do it all for them, too. I want that experience. I want to feel something real.
I'm jealous of couples. I'm jealous of my friends that are always hit on -cough-stella-cough-. I'm just happy I'm not the only one out of all of my friends that's never had a boyfriend/girlfriend. Maybe there is hope?
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Okay, last time I tried posting, my ENTIRE thing was lost because of stupid lj-cut crap. So, here I go with even more to put.
Two weekends ago was Junie's birthday sleepover thingie. XD Anyway, it was...craz y (to put it in a nutshell). I had so much fun and I enjoyed every second of it (even if I did read most of the early evening. > >;;
I got there and only Yuki and Shuichi were there. Junie bugged them for fan service and when she got it she complained that she wanted kisses (I was personally thinking she was getting raped, lol) and stuff. More people got there, Itachi became Quail Woman or something that has forever been immortalized by my camera (hahaha). I met lots of new people (seriously, that was a lot of new people to me) and got to learn more about Junie like who she hangs out with. They were a really cool crowd. ^-^
We went to the corn maze....That was fun....sorta. First they were trying to figure out who would go with who. Guess who was on their lonesome -points to herself- Yep. It wasn't until after we paid and we were about to go that Junie ask Shuichi and Yuki join her and Itachi went with me. (Thanks Junie! I would've died if I was alone X_X ) I was a nervous wreck. Went in singing to keep me calm and Itachi helped, too, by holding my hand and rubbing the back of it. I admit I was very scared in the beginning and just a nervous wreck towards the end. As it turned out we went to the wrong one. -blank stare- Yeah, if we would've gone the the right one, I don't think I'd be here. I'd be in the hospital on life support since I probably suffered from a heart attack or something. We went to Barnes and Nobles, then home, then played Truth or Dare. I didn't back down this time since it was only 5 of us. T'was funs...I guess. Weird mostly. Next day I left with Itachi and watched her make a ball of fluff from her blanket so of the way home. XD
Hmm, next thing on the agenda ish...I dunno. Oh yeah. THREE WEEKS~~~~! Three weeks until I go off for a week to Disney! ^-^ I'm uber excited. I'll miss everyone terribly, so I'll be calling a few people while I'm gone to check on things, lol. I get to go to all of the parks. Uber uber excited! Presents for a few people, I wonder who~~~~. (More than likely Rikku, Lulu, JunJun, Michi, and Itachi) but they'll end up Christmas presents, lol.)
I don't know what else to put. XD Bye bye then! ^_^
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| Yay New Layout |
[29 Sep 2007|12:37am] |
Yay! A new layout! I ish very happy about this, desu ne! I've been addicting myself to Full Moon o Sagashite again that way I can finish off the anime series so I can work on some awesome AMV ideas I have. This won't be my last Full Moon layout, I plan ENTIRELY on making on for February's most famous holiday, VALENTINE'S DAY! I already have the PNG I'm going to use, just need to work on the layout for it now and I'm good! ^-^
I also found a Haruhi Suzumiya PNG that I want to use eventually for Michi ( <3<3<3 ) But for what I wonder? She already has a kick ass layout and anything I made would probably suck....Hmm...I'll figure something out.
Anyway, I gotta go pack for Lulu's and go to bed.
Ja ne!
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| Screams and Tears for David |
[13 Sep 2007|03:50pm] |
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I cried this afternoon. I cried. I screamed. I threw things. I tore myself apart. First, I was crying because neither Shai nor Itachi could sleepover this weekend. I hate being grounded. I screamed curses at my mom who was twenty miles away. I screamed at my dog who watched me with her confused eyes. I cried and sobbed for no one. Out of nowhere I began to cry and kept sobbing for David. How did I go from being pissed off to breaking down over missing someone so very close to me?
I had to dry me tears quickly because Momma called again. Then after I got off the phone again, I cried over and over again for David. I stumbled through my hallway, crying his name, and broke down against the wall, wishing it was him, knowing, however, it was not. I kept asking the walls "why aren't you here" "how come you can be here to help me" "I can barely stand without you here to help me".
After I drug my clothes to my room, I went outside and sat in the rain for about twenty minutes, letting myself get soaked through. I was completely blank. No tears. No worries. No cares. No emotions. Just me, the chair, and the rain. I came back in and changed my clothes so I could feel warm again.
My throat is killing me and my eyes burn. I'm making tea so I can warm the inside of me now.
I want my David. I need him close to me. I want to hug him and never let go for fear of repeating this afternoon another day. I don't want to cry to the walls anymore. I want to cry to him.
Edit 5 hours later:
Momma is considering letting Itachi and Shai spend the night! Yay! Me ish happy now.
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| Dances+Rings=No Happy Ending |
[09 Sep 2007|10:07pm] |
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I'm irritated and I'm tired and I'm worn out.
Homecoming was this upcoming weekend and I was really looking forward to it. Despite the downfall of having district honor choir tryouts the same day, Itachi was coming over to spend the night and come to Homecoming with me. That's not happening anymore because I'm a dumb fuck and Momma can be a real bitch. I forgot to clean off the stove and other such chores in the kitchen Thursday night and Friday afternoon and this is how I get punished. Something I REALLY wanted to do is canceled and anyone else in the matter suffers as well. After Momma told me this I went to me room to call Itachi and let her know. I was crying and forced myself to calm down so I could speak to her clearly and let her know that Homecoming was no longer happening. I really suck at trying to keep my cool is all I can say. She knew something was up as soon as I said "Hey Itachi" and I started crying on the phone (-hits head for being such a cry baby-) as soon as she asked "what's wrong?" So...as I'm crying I told her that I was grounded and Homecoming was no longer happening because I was an idiot and forgot to do my (stupid) chores. I explained to her that I'm forever being grounded for stupid shit like this and I was extremely sorry for this happening. She kept telling me it was okay, that I had to calm down and not get worked up about it, that everything was going to be okay, that parents do that this stuff all the time, she understood. She also told me that sometime after I get off grounding we could possibly do something together like go to the Quarter. Though I was still crying and still upset I told her "yes" because I did want to go do that with her for some time. I still don't know how long I'll be grounded, hopefully it'll be over soon that way I can find some way to make this up to her. I feel so shitty for letting something like this happen. My eyes still burn for crying. I hate things that I really want to do not happening, especially when others are involved- makes me feel like I let them down or that I failed them. I doubt thats the case (if it is, whoops) but I still feel horrible, not for myself, but for Itachi. (Now I can help but think I was such a selfish bitch over the phone because I was upset because of something I wanted to do with her. I still am a selfish bitch because I'm still upset that I wasn't gonna get the chance to spend time with Itachi-chan. Damn me. Damn me to Hell and back again.)
Another thing that's ruining my damned life is stupid ass senior rings. I have to let Dad know by Thursday which ring I want so he knows how much he has to help Momma pay for it. I HATE senior rings now and I'm about to say "Fuck it" and not have a ring and just congratulate my friends and turn their rings come Ring Night later this school year. I'm currently going through two companies to decide which ring I want and what I want on it and all that jazz. I despise rings now with my entire being. More than likely, after I get all my turns, I'm just gonna put it on a necklace and wear it like that. No questions asked. I want en effing engagement necklace instead of ring now. That's how much I hate rings right now. Hopefully after New Years of 2008, I'll feel differently. That's about how long it should take to recover...maybe.
Anyway, good night folks. I'm done with my drama, even if the rings are bothering me more now rather than homecoming. Either way, their both bullshit issues.
I wish I had David or Phillip to run to and cry to. I also felt like nothing could get to me as long as I was crying and David's arms were around me telling me that I was safe with him, my big brother. I wish I could go back to that with him and Phillip again, but I know it won't happen. I don't have that kind of luck.
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So I haven't posted since school started. My class are...meh. As usual, my fav classes are choir and ROTC. Art 1 is okay. Only taking it so I can take photography next year. I'm also gonna ask coach gulliot if he'll place me in AP Art I would LOVE to have that class! Rikku-chan is taking it.
Anyway, something really has been bothering me.
This kid at school (like I remember his, whatever. He's a friend of mine's lil brother and a real pain in the ass) was talking to us and then he brought up Chris. Oh shit (for him). He started talking shit about him and I turned and said "Say another thing about Chris and see where it gets you" and he said "I'll say what I want about him". Ooooooo, I'm gonna murder this kid was ALL over my head. "Don't you DARE say a bad thing about Chris around me" I told him, OBVIOUSLY pissed off. "Again, I'll say what I want about ...Chris". What he was GOING to say was "Again, I'll say what I want about that fag." It was written all over his face.
I hate it when people say such cruel things about Chris or anyone I'm friends with. I couldn't help but think what he would say about OTHER friends I have that are bi,gay, and lesbians (go figure, a lot of my friends are bi or gay and yet I'm straight for the most part). It pissed me off even more. I wanted to scream at him, but I turned and stormed off. When I got home I was fine, then this morning I was in the shower thinking about it. Yes, when I'm in the shower I THINK about other things other than "scrub here, scrub there; rinse here, rinse there"; my mind wonders and flows like my element of water (yay pisces). I couldn't help but think "who else would say something like and about who?" My mind instantly went to two someone's I know. Another friend's brother and then a really good friend of mine (NO NAMES MENTIONED). He would say stuff about her in a heartbeat, I know he would. To me ESPECIALLY because he LOVES pissing me off. Stupid homophobic bastards. I wanna go bi or something just so they'd leave me alone in a "not talking to me anymore" sense. (-thinks- Hell I might have better luck in love dating another girl rather than dating a guy because so far my life with guys has been BUST! The guy I like currently is like an older brother, the other isn't interested, and then the other has no idea because I'm not so stupid as to tell him I like him. Damn it all....I need to meet a nice guy that'll be interested. DOESN'T ANYONE KNOW SOMEBODY?! -sings- Can anybody~~~~ Find me somebody to loo~~~oove?)
Anyway, I should go do my homework for my evil Alg II class. Night night~ <3
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| Absence.MechaCon.PS. |
[29 Jul 2007|10:52pm] |
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Oh my gosh it's been so long since I've posted!!! But, with good reason- NOTHING'S BEEN HAPPENING TO ME!!! Well > > Nothing interesting at least. So...I'll tell you what's happened since...Wednesday! ^^
Wednesday itself wasn't so bad, Wednesday NIGHT, however, I wanted to SHOOT myself. Lulu-chan and Rikku-chan started making a Mecha schedule. Please note that Stella nor I had a say in this. Hell, they even planned when we LEAVE. We have NO IDEA when we leave yet!!! Grrr, makes me so mad! But oh well, what can I do? I'll have to call Stella tomorrow and talk to her about it and what time we all plan on leaving and stuff.
Thursday rolls around and I go to Daddy's a day early. Nothing happens. Friday comes, then I'm stuck only taking ONE HOUR to get ready (done by 3) for a wedding that we don't leave for until 5 or 6. Waste of time. Could've just gotten ready at THREE to be done for when Daddy got home. Anyway, go to the wedding, have fun, see two cute guys, one was REALLY cute, the other was...meh, okay-ish cute. Naturally, all eyes on Jessie because she's way attractive. -starts messing up hair- If I even get a boyfriend I'll lose him to her I know it!!! Marrige will never be an option for me will it?! -huffs- That's it, moving outta state and not inviting her to the wedding unless she loses it and gains seventy extra pounds and looks worse than petty me with it. Karma, please don't quote me on that! (On that note, Momma is turning the house into a diet house, so, I might lose weight. Yay. Oh and Michi-chan, if you REALLY don't need those pills that helps you lose weight, I could put them to good use > >; ) Leave wedding, get home around midnight, watch a couple of episodes of Princess Tutu, go to sleep. Next day learn how to play poker, win two hands, lose two hands. Go to the Arenabowl concert with STYX. It KICKED ASS!!! (Even if I was feeling a little sick T-T) Came home today. Sunday. Woo.
Well...MechaCon is this Thursday....I'm more excited than words can describe. I know it doesn't seem like that, BUT, I'm trying to stay calm and cool about it before I get myself sick with anticipation! >_< I'm NOT missing this for the world! What has me even more hyped up is that Michi-chan asked me to go with her to the rave/House Party. Lulu and Rikku don't wanna go it seems though. It would be SO awesome if they did! T-T Anyway, Michi-chan asked me to go with her as Yuki since she'll be Haruhi. I agreed, but now this means I have to finish figuring out the dance for the show. XD I KNOW MOST OF IT! It's just this one part that I can't figure out. Michi-chan! Promise me you'll help me out with it this week or Mecha! Temari is DONE!!! THANK YOU KAMI-SAMA!!!!!!!!!! Except for the headband thing > >; Hello dye and permanent markers! Nagato will NEVER be done unless Rikku let's me borrow a snap and I use the white paint I have left from the fan to PAINT a belt. XD Wow...this is gonna be fun. I'm gonna ask Momma if we can go to Walmart Tuesday so I can buy all the stuff I need for the trip and all; see if they have any belts before I paint one, if not hello snaps and hello paint. Also, I'll TRY to post every night from Thursday- Sunday of Mecha with pics if Momma let's me bring the camera and laptop. If not, I'll see you all Sunday. XD
Well. Good night folks XDDDD
Oh wait. P.S.
I don't like when my friends are threatened; I don't like when they are lied about; I don't like when someone crosses the line from just being a PEST to a true PAIN IN THE GOD DAMN MUTHA-hush yo mouth ASS!!!!!!
So. If there is a SELECT person or PERSONS reading this... STOP ACTING LIKE (A) LITTLE KID AND GROW UP!!! STOP TAKING THINGS TOO SERIOUSLY, GET OVER THIS DUMBASS SHIT AND MOVE ON WITH YOUR LIFE SO THE REST OF US CAN GET ON WITH OURS! YOU HAVE GOT TO BE THE BIGGEST IRRITATION IN MORE THAN SIX PEOPLE'S LIVES!!! SO PLEASE! IF YOU'RE AS RELIGIOUS AS YOU SAY/THINK YOU ARE, LEAVE A CERTAIN THREE PEOPLE ALONE!!!!!!!
Oh... And don't even THINK about bothering ME or threatening ME about this post, because if you do, you WON'T be having fun at Mecha this year.
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Random Questionaires to fill up my time.
( I'm bored enough to read this... )
Ok enough of that XDDDDD.
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| A Week of Hell |
[12 Jun 2007|10:58pm] |
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Well...It started when BOTH Michi and Shai left two Saturdays ago. Michi was off to Disney while Shai was going to her grandparents. It started out okay. I started watching Ouran with the newly acquired time...but by Monday I was done. So I also made a RP on that Saturday as well and it faired out very well. Until it ended on Wednesday. I was dead by Tuesday. DEAD I tell you all!
I had no one to talk to...for the most part.
I was watching too much anime per a night. (I would NEVER say that unless I meant it.)
I was losing my mind...more so than normal.
I was having weird dreams of going to school and missing the bus at the end of it.
I WAS DREAMING ABOUT SCHOOL FOR CRIPES SAKE!!!
Well...it's all over. For now. Until both of them leave, again, at the same damn time. I'm praying that never happens.
TELL ME NEITHER OF YOU WILL LEAVE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN! PLEASE!!! TT-TT
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| At the Beginning |
[09 Jun 2007|12:28am] |
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Gosh I love that song! But, of course, it's over done for AMVs everywhere! Oh well. I was checking out my new FFX/-2 AMV that I made with it and one of the links is in an oriental language O_O; Most likely because the credits features Baragoku Otome by ALI Project.
Anyway! Here's the AMV! I hope you all like it! ^-^
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| I'm a Happy Goth |
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--METAL HEAD--
[x] Do you have long hair?
[ ] Do you like Beer?
[ ] Have you ever been in a Moshpit?
[ ] You don't believe in God?
[x] You got a Pentagram/heartogram on some clothing article etc.?
[x] You own some spikes?
[ ] Can you play guitar?
[ ] Can you growl? (um...I can meow...XD; )
[x] Do you own Boots?
[x] Do you rock out?
Total X: 5
--DRAMA DORK--
[ ] Ever been in a play?
[ ] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[ ] More than 10 Broadway shows?
[ ] Have you ever been/are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater
[x] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[ ] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever?
[x] Do you like the 'Sound of Music'?
[ ] Did you like the Broadway show you saw?
Total X: 2
--REDNECK--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ] Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[x] Do you ride four-wheelers?
[ ] Do you like to get dirty?
[x] Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[x] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy videos?
[ ] Do you live on more than 1 acres?
Total X: 3
--GOTH--
[x] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[x] Is most of your clothing dark?
[x] Do you think about death often?
[ ] Do you want to die?
[ ] Are you a social outcast?
[x] Are you pale?
[x] Do you like Hot Topic?
[x] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies?
[ ] Are you mean?
Total X: 6
-SKATER/PUNK--
[ ] Can you skateboard?
[ ] Do you wear Skateboarding shoes?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends? ((All the time….))
[ ] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops
[ ] Do you watch the x-games?
[x] Do/did you have any piercings other than your ears? (( I is like Aoi! 3 in left, 1 in right! X3))
[ ] Do you like/wear a mohawk?
[x] Do you wear Band t-shirts?
[ ] Have you called someone a poser recently?
Total X: 3
--PREP--
[x] Do you say the word "like"
[x] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AE/Aero?
[ ] Do the people in Hot Topic scare you?
[x] Do you giggle a lot when you're with your friends?
[ ] Have/do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[x] Do you like pop music?
[ ] Do you want/have a little dog?
[x] Do you laugh a lot?
Total X: 5 (NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO)
--HIPPIE--
[x] Is your hair long?
[ ] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[x] Do you want to save the animals?
[ x] Do you think war is unnecessary?
[x ] Do you like classic rock?
[ ] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[ ] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
[ ] Is your idea of fun sitting around one person playing a guitar and singing along?
[ ] Do you see someone playing frisbee and automatically ask to play?
Total X: 4
--GANGSTA--
[ ] Do you act ghetto sometimes?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[ ] Do you like rap?
[ X] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you like afros?
[ x] Have you ever said "Fo Sho"?
[x] Do you like to dance?
[x] Do You own 40 cd's
[ ] Are you colored?
Total X:4
--EMO-
[ ] Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies?
[x ] Do you like soft music?
[ ] Do people not understand you? ((Not for the same reasons you’re thinking of))
[x ] Do you write your own poems?
[ ] Do you dye your hair red, black, or any dark color? ((No….I’m trying to get a Reita look, but I’m still stuck getting lighter tones…))
[ ] Do you cut your own hair?
[ ] Do you sometimes feel very lonely? ((Does bored count?))
Total X: 3 ((HA! Take THAT TIFFANY!!!))
-SURFER--
[ ] Do you surf?
[x] Do you wear flip flops all year around
[ ] Is your hair shaggy/layered?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning? ((Nope…5:30))
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[x] Do you think the ocean is radical?
[ ] Do you want to be at the beach right now? (No...it's be cold now at night)
[XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX ] Do you hate tourists? ((THEY FILL THE STREETS WITH IDIOCY AND MAKE IT HARD TO GET TO MY FAVORITE STORES IN THE FRENCH QUARTER! STUPID BASTARDS…except for one that BETTER be coming down soon!))
Total X: 3…MILLION
--GEEK--
[ ] Do you wear glasses?
[x] Do you get good grades?
[ ] Do you use an inhaler?
[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[ ] Does your mum pick out your clothes? ((Thank GOD no))
[x] Are you on the computer often? ((….Why else would I be here?))
[ ] Do you ever get picked on? ((That’s life))
[ ] Do you look forward to going to school?
[x] Do you play video games?
Total X: 3 XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD I’M GOTH!!!! YAY!!!!!!Wait….do Goth’s say “yay”? XD I’M A HAPPY GOTH LMFAO!!!!!
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(1) The singular most boring question: what is your name? Amanda or "Awai-chan"
(2) Are you happy with it? I suppose...Amanda is Latin for "one who must be loved"...so yeah
(3) Are you named after anyone? As far I know, no.
(4) Are you a prostitute? No...-thinking "what in the hell?..."
(5) Your screenname: ACrimsonPrincess
(6) Would you name a child of yours after you? Heck no
(7) Then what would you name your children? Boy: Damien Raven; Girl: Ressadence Harumi
(8) If you were born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name be? Michael Anthony ------
(9) If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? Rikku-chan
(10) Are there any mispronunciations/typos that people do with your name constantly? A-MAN-DUH
(11) Would you drop your last name if you became famous? Depends on how famous we're talkin....
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(12) Your gender: Female
(13) Straight/gay/bi? Straight....
(14) Single? Yeah.
(15) Want to be? I already am o_O;
(16) Your birthdate: March 8th
(17) Your age: 16
(18) Age you act: 20-25
(19) Age you wish you were: Right where I am
(20) Your height: Taller than some of my friends, same height as a few of the rest, shorter than all the rest
(21) The color of your eyes: They change...Blue/grey with gold surrounding the pupil...No lie.
(22) Happy with it? Yesh! I have pretty eyes!
(23) The color of your hair: Dark blonde...about to be dyed.
(24) Happy with it? I'm about to dye it...what do you think?
(25) Left/right/ambidextrous? Right
(26) Your living arrangement? Mom/Stepdad/Lil brother most days, Daddy every other weekend
(27) Your family: Castro/Tabary/ and now Murphy
(28) Have any pets? Dog
(29) What's your job: Living
(30) Piercings? I ISH LIKE AOI FROM GAZETTE! 3 in left ear, 1 in right! X3
(31) Tattoos? 18th birthday...
(32) Obsessions? Drawing, writing, singing, music in general, Gazette, anime, Miyavi X3
(33) Addictions? How Asian guys -cough-Miyavi/Reita-cough-
(35) Do you speak another language? Does learning basic Spanish and Japanese count?
(36) Do you have a webpage? DA, Myspace, LJ, and a couple of websites
(37) Have a favorite quote? Yeah...
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DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
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(38) Do you live in the moment? Some days
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Most days.
(40) Do you have any secrets? Who doesn't?
(41) Do you hate yourself? Once a month to Once every 3 weeks...Get your head outta the gutter! I don't even have that yet!
(42) Do you like your handwriting? Some days...normally in the morning
(43) Do you have any bad habits? -looks around and avoids the question-
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people? You have pretty eyes, so please don't cry!
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? ‘Tiffany, Shut Up"
(46) What's your biggest fear? Not finding true love or finding it and losing it
(47) Can you sing? YES
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? No.
(49) Are you a loner? I perfer the term "independant" but I love being around people!
(50) What are your #1 priorities in life? Love, Laugh, Family, Life
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? Maybe.
(52) Are you a daredevil? Some days
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Hate- yes; Fear- no
(54) Are you passive or aggressive? Depends
(55) Have you got a journal? LJ
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? Compassionate, yet emotional
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? Is that one or one hundred?
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty, and creativity: I think I'll be swimming in all three today...Jenkins, hold my calls
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong? I am when I need to be, but when it gets to be too much, I break down.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Maybe...
(62) Do you think life has been good so far? I suppose it does have it's perks
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life? Things only get worse before they get better, so don't try to get yourself run over by a bus just yet.
(64) What do you like the most about your body? Nothing
(66) Do you think you are good looking? Only on certain occasions
(67) Are you confident? Depends
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like? ...Me?
(70) Are you perceived wrongly? Muchas veces.
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(71) Smoke? HELL no
(72) Do you do drugs? Medicine when needed?
(73) Read the newspaper? Living and comics.
(74) Pray? Sometimes
(75) Go to church? Rarely
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you? No.
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals? ....No?
(78) Take walks in the rain? When I feel like it and if no one is home.
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them? I try to avoid it at all costs
(80) Drive? Go carts?
(81) Like to drive fast? Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...
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(82) Liked your voice? Sometimes
(83) Hurt yourself? On accident
(84) Been out of the country? Yes
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick? Sushi
(88) Been in love? I thought I was, but in the end, it wasn't...confimed by the other party.
(89) Done drugs? NO
(90) Skinny Dipping? NO! > <;
(91) Had a medical emergency? Yep...
(92) Had a surgery? Yep...
(93) Ran away from home? Yes
(94) Played strip poker? No...and chances are I never will
(95) Gotten beaten up? I got punched this one time in middle school...
(96) Beaten someone up? No.....not yet....
(97) Been picked on? Would you like to see the elementary and middle school years?
(98) Been on stage? Yes....
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? No. Never been drunk. Don't plan on ever being drunk either.
(100) Slept outdoors? Yes
(101) Thought about suicide? Well..there was this one day in middle school that I like to call "the day of complete and utter chaos that may send me to hell, or at least purgatory"
(102) Pulled an all-nighter? Yes.
(103) If yes, what is your record? 32-48 hours.
(104) Gone one day without food? Almost
(105) Talked on the phone all night? Almost
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? Yes.
(107) Slept all day? I wish
(108) Killed someone? Not yet....Okay, no and never will...maybe.
(109) Made out with a stranger? No....
(110) Had sex with a stranger? Dear KAMI NO!
(111) Thought you're going crazy? Hahahahahaha. Yes.
(112) Kissed the same sex? ....Pervert
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex? ....P.E.R.V.E.R.T.
(114) Been betrayed? Yes.
(115) Had a dream that came true? Yes.
(116) Broken the law? Nope.
(117) Met a famous person? 3 in fact.
(120) Have you ever killed an animal by accident? It was a hermit crab! It wasn't my fault that it was really cold in the apartment!
(121) On purpose? I hate hermit crabs to this day....
(145) Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Yes...and it cost me a friendship that I haven't forgotten nor wouldn't have lost sooner or later anyway.
(146) Stolen anything? It was a $3 dollar book and I was 6, bite me/
(147) Been on radio/tv? Radio.
(148) Been in a mosh-pit? I wish...and then again I don't
(149) Had a nervous breakdown? Yes.
(150) Considered religious vocation? No.
(152) Bungee jumped? I wish.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back? Yes....
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(154) Shoe brand? Nike
(155) Brand of clothing? Lane Bryant/ anything from Hot Topic/ Aeropostle
(156) Cologne/perfume? Lucky Number 6
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work? Purple shirt/khaki pants/boots or tennis shoes/ black jacket
(158) How about parties? I'll go if invited
(159) Wear hats? If I find one I like and looks good on me, sure why not?
(160) Judge other people by their clothing? I'm not judgemental anyway, so no.
(161) Wear make-up? Yes
(162) Favorite place to shop? Hot Topic/FYE/Claire's/Game stores
(163) Favorite article of clothing? None
(164) Are you trendy? YEAH RIGHT!
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school? No.Period.
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BELIEFS
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(166) Believe in life on other planets? Yes
(167) Miracles? Yes
(168) Astrology? Yes.
(169) Magic? Yes, but then at the same time no.
(170) God? I have my beliefs.
(171) Satan? Sure, she's one of my best friends. HI RIKKU-CHAN!!!! ((Okay, no I don't. I don't believe in Hell most days either.))
(172) Santa? Not anymore
(173) Ghosts? I was haunted as a kid. I'm haunted now. What do you think?
(174) Luck? Yes.
(175) Love at first sight? Yes.
(176) Yin and Yang (that good can't exist without the bad)? Yes.
(177) Witches? Yes. There those who practice Wicca and Pagan religions, so yeah.
(178) Easter bunny? I wish.
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yes, but it is rare.
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? Yes.
(181) Do you wish on stars? Yes.
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DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
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(182) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? No.
(183) God has a gender? Yes. She is a very beautiful black woman.
(184) Do you think that science counteracts religion? Yes.
(185) Do you believe in organized religion? Not sure what you mean....
(186) Where do you think we go when we die? Too complicated a question for me to answer.
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(187) Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? Yes! And I love them all the same!
(188) Who is your best friend? Rikku/Stella/Lulu/'Tachi/Michi/David
(189) Who's the one person that knows most about you? David/Rikku/Lulu/Stella in that order
(190) What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you? Just wait until everything plays out in order to see the bigger picture even if it isn't in focus quite yet.
(191) Your favorite inside joke? UNCLE 'TACHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(193) Who's your longest known friend? Kayla
(194) Newest? Tachi
(195) Shyest? Kayla
(196) Funniest? All
(197) Sweetest? David/'Tachi/Michi
(198) Closest? Rikku/Stella/Lulu/'Tachi/Michi/David
(199) Weirdest? Rikku/Stella/Lulu/'Tachi/Michi/David ((all of them in their own, good ways))
(200) Smartest? Michi and Lulu
(201) Ditziest? Stella/Michi/Rikku/'Tachi (sometimes)
(202) Friends you miss being close to the most? DAVIIIIIIIIIIIIID
(203) Last person you talked to online? Rikku
(204) Who do you talk to most online? Rikku/Michi/David.
(205) Who are you on the phone with most? David
(206) Who do you trust most? Rikku/Stella/Lulu/'Tachi/Michi/David
(207) Who listens to your problems? Lulu/Rikku/David/Stella/Michi
(208) Who do you fight most with? All except for 'Tachi
(209) Who's the nicest? All except Rikku-chan...but even she has her moments
(210) Who's the most outgoing? 'Tachi/Michi/David
(211) Who's the best singer? .....No comment. Okay Michi
(212) Who's on your shit-list? People I despise with a passion
(213) Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? ....3 words: What the FUCK?
(214) Who's your second family? Pretty much all of them
(215) Do you always feel understood? Hell no.
(216) Who's the loudest friend? Michi and 'Tachi all the way
(217) Do you trust others easily? Not at all.
(218) AHHHHHH EMPTINESS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!: -pats head in attempt to comfort- Awwww it's okay...
(219) Name one person whose arms you feel safe in: DAVID! XD He's the only one who's arms in the group I've ever been in. XD He's meh big brother! (Not really, but he could be!)
(220) Do your friends know you? They wouldn't be friends if they didn't.
(221) Friend that lives furthest away: David.
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(222) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title? No.
(225) Do you consider love a mistake? Never
(226) What do you find romantic? Candles, night, stars, rain
(227) Turn-on? Someone who loves eyeliner, smells good, into music, goes at a comfortable speed, piercings (facial only), emo-ish (dress-style), guitarist ( X3 ), tattoos (1 or 2 at most), willing to accept me for who I am, not what I look like, comforting me, and telling me I look beautiful even when I know I'm not
(228) Turn-off? Don't take showers, smell bad, unclean, too serious, too fast, too emo, too preppy, doesn't act the same with me around friends than when we're alone, all around jerk
(229) Had a First kiss? No.
(231) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? Depends on who it is....
(232) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"? Depends
(233) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? I'd do it anyway. Screw society.
(235) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? No....only "loved" once.
(237) What is best about the opposite sex? They try their best to make you feel safe when you're freaking out
(238) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex? They have to be all macho around other guys. It's so stupid. Just be yourself damn it! > <;
(245) Do you read porn? Ew.
(246) Read the articles? Double ew.
(247) Just the pics? DEAR KAMI YOU PERVERTS! I MEAN, SHUT UP!
(248) What's the last present someone gave you? Don't remember
(257) Are you in love? No.
(258) Do you consider your significant other hot? Not with anyone....
(264) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk? Get out of the street before I get hit by a bus, walk past person with head down trying to look invisable
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(279) That haunted you? No idea...
(280) You wanted to kill? Same person as the one before that
(281) That you laughed at? Mom
(282) That laughed at you? Mom
(283) That turned you on? .............................Next question! >///>
(284) You went shopping with? Mom
(285) That broke your heart? ...next.
(286) To disappoint you? Next.
(287) To ask you out? next.
(288) To make you cry? NEXT > <;
(289) To brighten up your day? ...
(290) That you thought about? 'TACHI-CHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN~
(291) You saw a movie with? Lulu
(292) You talked to on the phone? Michi
(293) You talked to through IM? Rikku
(294) You saw? Rikku
(295) You lost? Great grandmother?
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(337) Are you going out? No.
(338) Will it be with your significant other? Don't have one.
(339) Or some random person? No.
(340) What are you wearing right now? Jeans, socks, shirt, underwear, bra....duh?
(341) Body-part you're touching right now: Head. Gutter. Out. Now. Hand.
(342) What are you worried about right now? 'Tachi-chan~!
(343) What book are you reading? Not reading any right now.
(344) What's on your mousepad? Don't have a house...I have a laptop witht he little touch-pad thingy.
(345) Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling: Tired. Indifferent. Bored. Blank. Um.
(346) Are you bored? Yeah.
(347) Are you tired? Yes.
(348) Are you talking to anyone online? Not at this moment.
(349) Are you talking to anyone on the phone? No.
(350) Are you lonely or content? Content.
(351) Are you listening to music? Not at this moment.
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I've been feeling so tired lately and I have no idea why. Maybe it's just me, or maybe my life HAS gotten a bit more stressful than what I'd like.
My mom lately hasn't been treating my like I'm really her daughter anymore. Like I'm just another person in the house that she has to feed, nothing more. She even made the comment that maybe I feel as though I should go live my dad because of all the BS I apparently give her. That isn't the case, when she gets on my case I can't help but get upset because I feel as though she isn't giving me the respect I deserve as just another person, not whether or not I'm her daughter or someone younger than her. Isn't that easy enough? Give respect and expect respect in return.
I despise my English teacher. She acts as if she is the only one who has a life and that her students don't. She gives up almost literally 20 pages of homework and expects us to have it in two days later completed. Ummm. With ANY of schedules and daily lives, only about 13 out of 80 will have it. The rest of us turn it in late or never. But not like it really matters though, we're still going to fail thanks all to her great quizzes and tests and stuff. Seriously, if she would give us a project or something I would have a low A or something.
Things aren't always so bad though. David is out of jail and I'm so excited about that! He's been in since November or stuff that happened back during the summer that wasn't completely his fault as far as I can tell. We talked last night but I was half asleep and I felt so bad this morning when I realized he could most likely hardly comprehend. I'll be calling him again soon...and mostly telling him to check my myspace as well as LJ so that we can kind catch up while I'm in school and he has nothing better to do.
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I've been questioning myself a lot lately, questioning what I want to do within the next little while. I'm not dying, as far as I know, but it's something that I've come to realize that I do whenever there is a lot on my mind that I'm worried or concerned about.
Let me give you an example, I desperately want to start cosplaying, but that takes money. In order to get money, I need to find a job. I'm not sure if I'll even be getting a job as far as it goes so far since I'd be very new at it and have no past work experiance. Anyway, I need money to buy the pattern for the outfit and also need to create a pattern for a few extra things. I also need money in order to work on my prop. I also need to buy accesories such as a head band, gloves, and shoes (which I'll have to work on). Also I'll need time to learn as much as I can about this character, or at least learn what I don't know and memorize what I can't remember. Also I'll need time to practice her character so that I'll become believable to others that I am in this character, though in reality they know I'm not. A friend of mine has been helping me a GREAT deal, and as I have come to fear, I'll have to ask more of her. Pretty much TEACH me to use the bloody sewing machine since I suck at it anyway... Not to mention I despise mine because it's older than me and confusing. I have to buy a wig so that I can style it myself because I want to do SOMETHING other than the damn prop and such. Lord, this costume is going to cost me a fortune. (To me, a fortune is anything greater than $50, so you can only imagine how I reacted when I realized I got over $300 for my birthday.) So I'm looking at it costing me about...I don't know...anywhere from $100-$200. Why do I have the feeling that my friend will be teaching me how NOT to spend so much on a costume. Also, there is another costume I want to work on, but I think I'll just buy it instead, including the damn wig. THAT costume is most likely going to cost me about $150. I was thinking about wearing it whenever she's not wearing is costume from the anime I'm making my costume from. Okay...this is most likely getting confusing for you. The anime she's been doing what I'll start doing is Naruto. She is the wonderful (and psycho) Sakura and I'll be doing Temari. The group she's been cosplaying with has been planning on doing the Time Jump/Skip version, so, naturally, I'll be doing the same. At least I'll be wearing my two favorite colors-red and black. The costume I plan on buying is the night class uniform from Vampire Knight. I want to cosplay as Kaname Kuran, yes the pure-blood vampire GUY. Jeez, even I want to cosplay as a guy ONCE, especially if it's a vampire guy.
Another example. My mom is trying to use getting me a new car and paying the note and I just pay insurance to get me to go to Nicholl's so I can stay home. I'd MUCH rather go to ULL, have a used car, and live on campus, an apartment, or in a sorority house. I want to go to college for what I want to do rather than what SHE would rather I do.
I have plenty more on my mind, but I guess I just to sit back and figure out what I can do right now rather than later....But I wouldn't mind some help along the way!
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